Zain's View

Someone called me today to ask about NUALS. A common friend had given this guy my phone number as he got allotted in the college I spent 5 years of my life in. He starts with asking me how is NUALS. So I start talking, and I realized a lot of things. I start telling him how college was for me. Through out the 5 years I always wondered how my life would be had I gone somewhere else. Like, someplace with a lot of strikes and then random things like an arts college. But then I realized I wouldn't be me without being here. It changed me in several ways. For one, I was a Rebel, let me put it simply, I was a wild animal, a really wild one, just like my hands my tongue could hurt people and the pain wouldn't have left for days. And then would I have gained anything, NAH. Well, NUALS tamed me. From a lion to a wolf maybe, don't know. At least I learned to think before I start acting, to measure words before spitting it out. Was it the place or was it just growing up. Maybe a mix

Actually its not a revelation or anything, I just realized it recently. I always had this confusion and doubt as to this one question. It kept nagging me from the back of my head. Why do women change their ideas, perspectives or goals after marriage? A spec of the moment changes these people-  from a career oriented person to the best house wife (oh, sorry lemme sugarcoat it, home maker), or from a cheery bubbly girl into the silent versions, etc. They reevaluate their entire perspectives, and they present it to you as though they were for that side -from forever, Dude, You just shifted sides yesterday? What is happening?  Different answers swirled through my head at different points in time. The answers - fell in love, love for children, responsibilities, and the list goes on. I saw this happen with my friends, aunts, neighbors, even stories I heard about my own mother bore witness to this fact. How does things change so much? It's not that I thought it was wrong, its just that I

I got married... So WHAT??? That's a question I keep asking...DAILY. How many times? I have never counted, its going to be a lot if I tried. Oh no... Don't let your mind roam elsewhere. Its just that people expect you to change so much that they don't even recognize you. Unlike what my Mom says I am not overthinking. I didn't post anything for so long so as to check if I am dreaming or overthinking it. People in India (or maybe everywhere) expect you to change so much that they themselves don't recognize you. Yeah, a few days back, I met with my second cousin and she looked, or lets say evaluated me and when she saw that I spoke the way I did, laughed the way I did, walked (in my case jump around), she said Oh Lord, you haven't changed at all, now you should consider changing, since you are married. I smiled and gave my goofy laugh, as I don't unload my theories and thoughts with people I meet once in a while. Now you think its only the distant relat

Yeah, so like any other event, the planning and execution was really tough. I'm sure hosting an International Academic event can be easier than this. Here there is unexpectedness through out, 1000s of opinions involved, and finally the execution left for oneself. My shopping was done weeks before, except for the collection of my 'dress of the day' from the designer. The shopping for everyone else went on and on. Another aspect that went through a lot speculation and finally a lot of criticism was the jewelry. I think everyone expected me to be draped in gold so that my dress itself won't be visible. Yeah!!! So when a lot of relatives came home (yeah there is the customary visits by a lot of people), they gaped at my father with their mouths open when he said the amount of gold he was actually buying. 20 sovereigns of gold is way toooo less when you compare the 300 or so presently happening in the society. And then they look at me with a look that said why are you sup

Hello blog readers! Greetings from Delhi. Taking over from Zainab for this blog post, I am proud to bring you an expose ooooooon....! 7 THINGS WE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT FATHIMATHU ZAINABUUU!!! 1. She loves grophers. You'd think a shopping outlet of Reliance fresh half a kilometre away would suffice for the emergency purpose of Tropicana orange juice. But no. It is not as satisfying unless you place an order with grophers to have it delivered to your doorstep two days after placing the order. 2. She's got a thing of artefacts of ye old, regardless of how pointless they are. Ever since we've got here, it's been red fort this or taj mahal there . Alright, they may not be as pointless as I think they are (yes, they are symbols of our magnificent culture and history la-de-da)but let's be honest. We all know that the best we tend to make of these trips is an infinite collection of future whatsapp and fb dps, meant to be poignantly and strategically upload

Oh yeah, the title strikes well right !!! I know all your minds have reached the seventh sky, but yeah get them back here and start reading the next part of my unending story. So I didn't post anything yesterday. I wont be saying - Dude! I had exams. Its similar, but yeah I didn't have the exams. Due to the public transport bandh the professional ethics exam got postponed. I was planning to start writing then and there, but then Mr. Modi Ji comes and reveals that all the money in my purse was invalid from tomorrow on wards. And then I realize shit, I don't have any money in my account, that means no mts recharge, no phone recharge and no paytm shopping, nothing. So had to runoff and put some money into my account. In all that chaos this kinda got sidelined. The earlier mentioned chaos reminds me as to what my life is at this present moment. Its full of CHAOS. Ummi and Baps not here, gotta get a dress designed, no time, internship is there in between, and then Jan mid i

So yesterday was my engagement, when I was sitting here and listening to- I don't know what. Today when Baiju came and asked Ha, how was your engagement ? I simply smiled, not that eeeee happy smile, but the are you kidding me smile. Yeah, I got engaged yesterday and all I feel is jealous about the food they had there. More about desserts. Hmmm does that happen ? Ain't I supposed to have some sort of feeling, happy, sad, confused, etc,etc And about my engagement, I have no clue what happened there, and when I asked my Bro, he said all he heard was wedding is decided for this and this date, lets go have food. And when he is telling me this, I am looking at him, looking forward to whatever he is telling, that's when he said that's it, and I am like WHAT ??? That it??? and then he starts his unending epic story about the food there. After 5 minutes of his saga, I got up and told asked him to shut up, dude, you just had my engagement food. Okay, don't think that I

It's not that I blog everyday. This happens when many conditions are satisfied... When I have a lot going on in my head, plus, there should be good enough wifi (this means I should be either in the college or in the office)(my home wifi is the worst found on the surface of earth. I am posting it now coz I am in the office waiting to for 6.30 to happen, diwali celebrations, also waiting for the event managers to turn up (I know, they are supposed to be punctual aren't they) and then Baps have to drop me to college. This unusual custom is coz celebrations go onto the night (not exactly, it's just till 8, but its very very late in my grandmas terms), that means if I take the car I will have to come back alone, So at last we reached a common ground that Baps will drop me and pick me up :) And another thing about today is Nov 1 or Kerala Piravi (the state of Kerala came into being today). Baps puts on the news every day night and yesterday I heard on passing that the chie

Today is a Monday and as always the most boring day of the entire week. And the usual rush trying to reach before Asife Sir does his usual thing. Closing of doors... For us, its very similar to heaven's door being slammed shut( just for attendance sake). The only thing of change is the shocked faces of friends and all those crazy congrats hugs. There was the shocked faces, there was the 'I expected this' faces and there was this 'are you kidding me' faces. It was fun looking at all those faces. Perks of getting married. I am sure Niranjan and Baiju were about to throw their bags on me, when they thought I was kidding. I had to call up Drishya to stand as a witness. The only thing that calmed them was the promise of an assal adipoli biriyani. And then there was Naveena, she literally screamed (but then, yeah, she is Naveena). Another irritating part about getting married is everything is associated with marriage. It is awesome when your dad brings home different

Let me clarify - As one of my friends said, waiting for the next next next step, this is not the story of that step, coz that hasn't happened yet. Then why I am I doing this now ??? I have no clue. Does every girl go crazy before the marriage? Do they fret on every single aspect of every single happening ? Well, if the answer is no, then something is really wrong with me.  Right now at this moment, when I am writing this I am worried about my wedding dress. Should I wear an Arabic Lacha or a gown. I went to 4 shops today. Thinking back, I don't know what I was searching for exactly. From a salesgirl viewpoint, we looked liked  3 anada prethangal roaming around several boutiques. I can't blame them, Choosing the wedding dress and several other of them is such a big event over here. Usually, it happens this way, a bunch of relatives and family crowd around a girl who is trying on several dresses. And then there was US, we looked like people who had landed from 5 cent