Zain's View

I don't know why I am doing this now, writing all this up on a blog. Maybe the old mischievous me is back and up to something. I am not a centralized and organized blogger. my scribbling are mashed up in notebooks, on my facebook wall and this. So, now like the soap operas my story takes a leap of 10 days and we are on that 10th day. Also, today is a working day and I have got college to attend and today is also the day the groom comes. Ummi is leaving the next day and the he just landed the day before, so it had to be crammed in this one day. Like any other day I went to college, but at 12 my bro calls and tells me that they reached Trissur and that I have to reach fast. So I bunk the 4th hour and go home.(Well, I am sure since it was environmental law somebody would have called proxy for me) And the task of dressing up begins. Now flashback, through those 10 days what I was feeling was real creepy. My friends say I was excited. My family says I was all freaked out. Me -- I s...

So the next step was the penukanal wherein the prospective family would meet the girl. The entire week my mind was full of doubts and questions. I never had a liking towards anything related to marriage except for kids and a fun day called wedding. Let me be truthful, I didn't except anything from the ritual. My main concern was not if they liked me(I knew they wouldn't). I was worried that they would come and meet me and then say I am too fat and then they would leave. And what would unfold would be hell of a torture. Everything I eat would be scanned and I would be screamed at to reduce my weight and all that comes along with it. Its not like I am new to this torture, but I didn't want the intensity to increase. If that happened, I am sure my family would have actually gone to the extent thinking of inventing a machine to read my mind as to what food I am thinking of.  I kinda knew this was gonna happen. But Rukku was all excited. I think she was the one more confident...

So all this started when... okay the truth is that I have no idea when all this started, anyway the beginning is a spark of an idea in Rukku's mind. And I have no clue how things churned to this on that side. For me it started when I got a call from her after all these months. She asked for my full photo. Since the term full photo is totally associated with a marriage proposal, I didn't think twice to reject the same. But somehow she managed to get hold of it. As many other events of any other day, I forgot about it when the sun rose up high the next day. Apparently a lot of things were happening on the other side.  I got shock when my father came down to India and while having breakfast revealed the real intention of his visit. After the initial shock I laughed, I thought he was kidding. He said the proposal was really ON. And their people wanted to meet me. And my mom would be coming down soon. I sat there processing the whole thing inside my head. I don't remember m...

Darkness was falling all around as though the sky was coming down. With all the helplessness I look up to the sky as though it was my last refuge. Whole body aching I lay there, hanging down the cliff with pain unable to bear. With the storm about to come barely knowing the time I have left. My fingers are paining, as the sharp edges of the rocky cut through me. Looking up to the sky I called him; god whom I have never called before, why me? Just two hours back, I was at home a place full of love, yet I was alone. But now, all those faces are burning fire. I had ran out of there with my bike, expecting peace here and there. The long brown grass moved with the winter wind, and I reached the best place on land, or maybe I thought so, not knowing the worst. With the fall fear captured my eyes. Now, hanging down I hold tight struggling and struggling with all my might. Below me the rushing sea opens up to take me. As I clutch tight I ask ...